December Train Derailed
December 2017 – There’s something I must tell you….
Somebody has a Mom
Maybe Sister, perhaps Aunt
that is sitting out there tonight
wishing you would walk in the door
of the kitchen
and give her just one good reason
to believe/forget the world’s cold shoulders
and hard edges and all that shit she has had to eat over
all the years might have meant something
more than the FWB de-jour or an
ex- husband that barely speaks to her
the old friends that seldom call
not to mention the children that
ignore/take her for granted.
sitting in the colored lights with a glass of wine
the tears are barely an after-thought
as she wonders why you never showed up
in her life and perhaps if you did once
why she ever
ever let you go.
Attitude House 12/99
The whistle is the period
in this motion sentence.
calling cooling coffee steam
escaping gray minuet figure 8s
in a rocking cardboard tray.
how many years
have you been ending
your life sentence
in this paragraph.
to some temporary core
where you define
your next visit as the
last lap of time and distance
like rungs of a ladder.
That track bed ratio
of rhythm and ties.
How do they sing in their beds so ?
What is it with that whistle
that you still insist upon
that you hear so clearly
into a sentence of movement.
Take a deep breath
of the dark roads awash
in wire to wire rain.
Do you stop to heave a sigh here ?
In relief awash or gasp for air
15 hours after ignition.
Do we have your
How can you hope to convey
A shadow’s dance
In lock step perpetuation.
What kind of ticket shall we call this then ?
Miracle, weary ritual
or merely picking
from the fabric of your reflections
a thread you wove
that called you by name incessantly.
Into a dream
from out of a dream.
Where you step
and step again
all over it.
Just past it
12/03 Greetings from Gridville
Christmas Visit Snapshot
Nearly noon along the Hudson
Brilliant light about
descending rust wine
iron crane wench hook
set in blue and white midday relief.
McNamara’s daughter isn’t coming
Johnny in Singapore
You sit in here alone
listening to the bartender
tell that the pickpockets are
using box cutters this year
up on 86th and Lexington.
Back in the Big Red Mountain booth
way downtown beaten worn linoleum
I’ll call you from the payphone
in the back near the pool table
while listening to the killer jukebox
resurrect Spike Jones singing,
“you always hurt the one you love.”
12/99 Attitude House
Can you find any words left
for the long runway and this familiar foot rest.
All day miles melted past
and you were able to sit still silently propelled
just reading and taking notes.
Your big idea of time off.
Now before the last leg of the trip
you heel toe the legs put the sidewalk square
with an older eye.
Attesting to this as I walk in the door
overheard from the boys over the pool table,
“here comes the professor…..
wonder where his footnotes are tonight?”
So you take your place at the bar and
Always remembering, remembering
where you came from.
Greenport Christmas 98 Attitude House